Family Relationships

Have you ever had a change in your relationship with family that absolutely throws you for a loop?
I have encounter such a change this week and I am still in shock over it.I didn't see it coming and don't know from whence it came.
A daughter who I have been very close to for a very long time has all at once decided I am not to be a big part of her life anymore.After years of everyday phone calls and shopping trips and taking care of her
kids and the list goes on and on. Now I am a poison in her life. I know I have many shortcomings and failures that I will be judged for one day when I face my Lord and Savior but I don't think this is one.
She has decided that she is tired of me controlling and managing her life. This is my stubborn headstrong daughter who no one can make do anything but what she wants to do.I really don't know know as I said were this came from. My husband said it was just the opposite. It is sad and it hurts but I will respect
her decision and pray that someday it will change. I love her and her children and I shall miss the almost
daily contact we once had but life goes on a little sadder but it goes on.God is in control always.
Until next time
Linda

Sad Sunday

Today I am so very sad and all I want to do is stay in bed and cover my head and not move.The
physical changes in my Mom are easier to handle than the changes in her mind. It is so hard to
see how confused she is and mixed up.I pray that it is temporary and she will become clearer
each day.
I want to retreat and wait for these things to pass but I can't.My mothers need for me is stronger
than my desire to cover my head. So up I get and prepare for whatever awaits me as I go to
visit her.
My thoughts and prayers are for all children who are facing the same situation with a beloved
parent. It is hard but we will do what we have to do to take care of them.
Thank you for letting me write my feelings out because if I verbalize them it will open the
floodgates of tears.
Until next time
Linda

Circle of Life

The first time I remember hearing this Circle of Life phrase was from the movie The Lion King. This becomes
all to real if you have become the caregiver of a parent. I am blessed that my Mom who is 88 is still with me and a part of my life.The roles are now reversed and I am her caregiver.It is hard to comprehend that this once strong and independent woman now needs help with things that we
take for granted.It is so hard for her, she is always saying I am sorry but I can't help it. I know she
can't and I feel for her as I know what she feels. If you have always been the one who takes care of everyone else it is a hard reality.
We come into this world as helpless little babies and then we grow and grow and become adults and
then as the circle of life continues we begin to get older and older and return to the helpless condition we came into the world with.As I said earlier the roles are reversed and we beome the
parent and they the child. They cling to us as we clung to them as children
The circle of life is what it is a circle that continues without stopping.
This new season of life within this circle is hard in many ways but I am thankful that I am able
to take care of her to give back to her the love and care that she has always given to me
In Ecclesiastes 3:1 To every thing there is a season and  time to every purpose under the heaven"
Until next time
Linda

Hard Week

It has been a very hard week. Last Saturday my Mama fell and fractured her hip. We had to call EMS to take her to the hospital.It was about 4am. We went to Wake Med North first and they x-rayed her and got her stable and then transferred her to the main campus for surgery. They did surgery that afternoon and
put pins in her hip to hold it together. She was in the hospital until yesterday when they sent her to
rehab. She could be there as long as six weeks depending on how she does.We are just hoping and
praying that she will be able to walk again. She was already using a walker because of the very bad
arthritis in her knees.
It is very hard to see your Mama in pain and to leave her with strangers.
I am trusting God to keep her safe and for a full and complete recovery.
Until next time
Linda

Writing Class #2

This class is about to beat me down. So much information that some of it( to me)
 is hard to understand. I am printing out each lesson to use as a reference because
I know I will be referring back to it many times.
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The class is showing you and giving you information about how to possibly make money
on the internet.It is instructing you on how to blog/ how to set up web site/ how to write
a webzine and much much more. Mind blowing and a lot of work. You can make money
writing and publishing on the internet. You must do your research and check everything out
before you commit to doing it.

I am going to do my research check out my options and then decide which way to go
with my writing. I have lots of things I want to write articles about but just need to
know the right place to do it.

They say as long as you keep learning and try new things it will keep you feeling
young and alert. I am ready to keep on keeping on.

To those of you are reading my blogs I thank you very much.

Until next time
Linda

Writing Class

I am learning alot in my writing class. The more I learn the more I need to learn.
It is not as simple as just sitting down and writing. The average person when
surfing spends only 56 seconds on a web page so you need to write to grab
their attention so they will stay longer.

I am not going to give up. I have a few people reading my blog so as I absorb
all this information and apply it to my writing, my readership should grow.
We can only hope and be positive.

Until next time
Linda